Blog #4: So Confused, So Lonely

" and I have a girlfriend who I love, Sarah Jean (I'm not going to use her real name just incase some perv reads this) "


Who do I think I am? I'm completely in love with her still. 7 weeks later.. it's been hard. She's made things harder. I dont know why I feel the need to be so conservative, it's obvious no one is really reading these... M = Mia, S = Sarah Jean. I dont know why I can't seem to let Sarah go. Mia is a bitch. I was right. Making out with that damaged soul was a bad idea. I didn't know. Megann... oh Megann.. I'm so sorry. I think Aly was right. Maybe I did just kiss you because I was flattered. I dont know whether my feelings were true or not. I dont know what is true or not. I just kinda want to die.


Death. A fascinating subject. My mother suggested I have a obsession with death, I don't completely disagree. It seems quite possible.


Sarah, I love you... I truly do, however I think I'd probably hurt you if I ever saw you. You're such a conniving little bitch. I made out with Megann, so that isn't any of your business... it was after we'd been broken up for 6 weeks. :| like qu'est-ce fuck? You've decided to start telling people I cheated on you. This insults my entire being. I never cheated, I never will. I thought about it sure.. I came close even. But no, I did not. 


You specifically went after someone who you knew would hurt me the most tell the biggest secret I'd have that you knew would hurt me. Me being bisexual. Yeah, I'm actually straight. I considered it. But no, acting gay is fun, I'd never actually do anything with a guy though. I can't believe you'd break my trust like that even after we broke up... I have so much I could retaliate with, but I know that would just make things much worse. Besides I dont think I could ever hurt you the way you hurt me.


Aly - " I'm the greatest person on earth, your bestest friend, the prettiest at SCS and I get nothing just mentioned " gotta love her. I possibly do. I dont know. She has a bf who she loves very much, and I doubt she's interested. Besides she doesn't have the greatest track record.. and I dont want to get hurt. And she's a very valuable friend, moving her as more than a friends is very very very stupid. Still I can't help but wonder 'what if' ...


Sex. S-E-X... not intercourse. But everything but. I miss it. I miss it more than I should. Sarah had perfect boobs, a perfect ass... it's hard to be with someone who is otherwise *cough cough Mia cough cough*


It's 2;30 am on a weekday. I'm still not done my work. I think I'll have to just live with it.. I still want to MB.. fuck. MB Sarah used to say that. She was always so horny. I loved it... i dont think I'll meet anyone like that again... most girls dont masturbate more than I do.. I loved watching her do it tho. I think about her way too much.


Well thats it for now.. i feel better actually.

Blog #3: S&M

At this point I hate my life. S has dumped me, and she's such a skank she's probably already fucking other guys. I quit theatre, S is there. Okie, so maybe I dumped her but whatever. I didn't mean it. I cut off talking to her almost a week ago. I also made out with the girl that pree much got us broken up, I also felt up her tits. She has much bigger ones than S, but she is all aerole and no nipple. I like nipple... The new girl is M. M is kinda a bitch, so was S, but I think M is falling for me. I'm not sure if this is good or bad cause I just want sex...

Tonight I'm feeling suicidal. I miss S, and I think I'm going to hurt M. I still love S... but I dont know what the fuck to do about it. I want to kill myself. I think I want to cut myself open and let all my fluids free from this fucked up container. Then again... I'd rather just OD or something, something less messy... the Therapist chose the worst day to talk to me, I thought I was over her.. I'm deff not. Like what the fuck did I do to deserve the BS she put me through?

Blog #2: My First B*tching Post

The title of this blog is called 'The Really Stupid Teenage Drama.' So therefore this blog is about stupid teenage drama (this shit is everywhere). Let's start with me.

There is a kid, Isaac P, I always sorta knew he didn't like me. I never particularly liked him either (he's the conceited jock type) anyways, he has started telling me 'no one likes me' though technically that is incorrect I do realise that I am not the most popular guy around. Now at first I just rolled my eyes and walked away, it didn't bother me to much. But later on it started eating me away.

So FML I just found out that I didn't make it into the highschool musical. Plus the theatre group out side of school is so overrun by tykes that theatre has died to me. I am no longer a theatre kid, I do not have an identity. I am screwed. 

Blog #1: The New Blog

Hi, I know no one out there is reading this, and I'm kind of glad of that... I am a typical teenager with typical teenage problems. I don't know how often I'll post, but I'll try to post at least once a week. Since this is my first post I'll likely talk about absolutely nothing.

I am 15, five foot seven and muscular. I have long blond hair with striking blue eyes. I was born June 4th, and I have a girlfriend who I love, Sarah Jean (I'm not going to use her real name just incase some perv reads this) I am attending a school called SCS.

Most of those who read this probably will already know me.